A big milestone...

There's so much going on in the life of a toddler. Today we reached the big milestone of the big bed. I was soo very excited about putting it together and bringing Melina home from schoolhouse and seeing her excitement. I guess I didn't think too much about it. Then just a few minutes ago as I was putting her to bed I realized there would be no more rocking her and holding her and singing to her before I put her down. We even took out the chair I've used to hold her and read her stories in and sing to her. Just trying to sing, "You Are My Sunshine" was really hard. She's three years old and I still remember bringing her home and having her bed next to mine. I remember waking up in the middle of the night to make sure she was breathing. I remember putting her in her crib for the first night. Of course I remember the late night/early morning feedings, but they pale in comparison to the happy memories. I've sung to her every night I could. I've read to her or been there when hubby reads every night I could. She's one of the best things that's ever happened to me.

Help for Burma/Myanmar

What a heartbreaking day it is when we have to request through the UN help for aid to a country that has been devastated by circumstances beyon our control. It's discouraging to think that a country would deny aid to it's own people, yet that is what's going on right now in Burma/Myanmar. Thousands could be missing and possibly dying and there is nothing that can be done to encourage the military regime to open it's doors. What are they afraid of? Being taken over? Possibly. The outside world seeing how desolate the country really is. The world openig it's eyes to see the real Burma/Myanmar that we are denied access to? All of the above? They are scared and are hiding something. I would like to see the UN doing somthing about it.

I'm including a website with this post. The address is for the US Campaign for Burma.
http://uscampaignforburma.org/cyclone-nargis-devistates-burma I'm trying to help get the word out and educate people about the situation going on. It's only a small part, but I feel I must do something.

Here also is another site that has been set-up to help educate people on what has been going on. http://uscampaignforburma.org/action/flier.pdf and other still where you can write a letter to the editor of your local newspaper about your concerns and support of what is going on http://uscampaignforburma.org/action/burma_media.pdf. Please help in any way you can.

Beyond Words

I was moved today. Moved and affected deeply by something that I saw today. On the cable station Animal Planet there was a progrma called Face to Face with the Polar Bear. It was chronicalling the journey of a pair of polar bear cubs during their first year. One was male and one was female. The last scene I was able to watch was the female at the end of her fist year emaciated and starving. Shaking so badly becuase all her fat deposits were gone... she had no resources left to find something to eat. It was only a matter of time before she became prey for some other animal, possibly another polar bear, to come along and kill her. The site of her was so unexpected and so grotesque that I broke down in tears. Heart wrenching sobs seemed to come out of nowhere as I relived this site in my head. Bailey (our cat) came out to see me because she had heard me. Even now as I think about it and write this I am crying. I feel so much for this animal for any animal that they have to reach this point is so hard for me to deal with. The moral of the story was that our planet is warming. The polar bears main route to food was dislodged and she had to take another path, because of this she lost weight and was unable to make up for it. I feel so helpless for these animals. Our world is crumbling around them and they are the innocent parties here. We the human's are ruining the planet and most people don't care. They say leave it to future generations to fix. How dare we!? How dare we be so selfish that we take away the polar icecaps, or the everglades, or the rainforest?? There are beings that live there!!! There are animals who call that home! Who will stand up for them? Who will be the voice of the voiceless??

Phone calls...

I don't care what you say.... people in Wisconsin can kiss my butt. Talk about some rude people!!! I realize that they are getting lot of phone calls. I realize they've heard it all before... but do you have to be such jack-asses on the phone??? I called for about 8 minutes. My heart couldn't take anymore. How do people face this kind of rudeness for two hours?? I am not an outgoing person in the firstplace. It's going out on a limb for me to call people anyway... everytime it cues me that the line is ringing my heart is my throat and I'm holding my breath. 7/8th of my calls were hangups. I had one rude ol bat tell me she wouldn't vote for my candidate if I payed her. My natural tendency is to give her some snotty answer and to call her a colorful name, but I can guarantee it would get me in trouble. My people would call and ask me to never volunteer for anything like this again. *sigh* Oh well... my next assignment is going to be collecting signatures to get Hillary on the ballot here in MT. This one I think should go much better. My goal is 75-100 people. We'll see what happens. Wish me luck!

Prayer Time

There's nothing like listening to your two year old (almost three) saying her prayers. She remembers mommy and daddy (after prompting at previous prayer times). She remembers her school house teacher. She remembers her best friends and her buddy. She remembers the cats Andy, Bailey, and Callie. For a while she remembered her Uncle Bailey when he came to visit. The time is so precious... her little voice is so sweet. I want that time to last forever. I want to videotape her and keep it forever and ever. I want her to stay as little and innocent as she is today. I don't want another baby to go through this again. I just want her. I want her to be my baby forever. She is my love, my little miracle, my little baby.

I Want To Be Heard

I want my vote to count. I want my voice to be heard. Yet right now I feel like a voice speaking in the wilderness. When do the people get to have their say? When do I get to make a difference? What can I do to get my opinion heard? They say that "every dog gets his day" well then by golly I want mine. I want people to hear what the average woman, mother, wife has to say about the election process. I want my frustration to be known. I want people to know that the mainstream media doesn't know everything. Not even close!! They're supposed to be representing the average American. All they are really doing is trying to brainwash American's into voting for who they want. So then they can have the power. We give them too much power to mush say and way too much influence in how we think. Do you honestly think that they know what's best for us? They with the million dollar cars and mega-million dollar houses? How did we let this happen? How did we lose ourselves? How did we lose our identity?

I want so badly to talk with Sen. Clinton. If you know someone who knows someone who knows someone who knows her, please let me know,let her know give her my number! I want her to know that there are people out there who don't believe a word Obama is saying. We don't fall for the pretty words and false promises. Whatever happened to believing in a real person? Someone who makes mistakes and learns from them. Why do people fall for the person the media is promoting? Do you ever ask yourself why are they promoting him? What does he get out of the deal? What do they get out of the deal? What is he doing for the publicity? To me he is sacrificing his integrity and respect by selling out to the mainstream media. My heart is breaking as I think of all she is going through. My prayers are doubling for her even as we speak.

Air time

You know what really irks me about this election process? It's all the press time that the "popular," "say what you want to hear," "gives me a warm f-in fuzzy" person is getting.

WHY? There's no place in this media that we as common people can voice our opinion!!! I am so frustrated! I want so badly to tell the people of the US what idiot's they are being. WHY?? Are you falling for the smoke and mirrors this person is spewing out like puke?? Are you so desperate that you have to fall for false promises? For BS??? You are setting yourself up for disappointment. For a reality check that's going to smack you in the head and then you'll have screwed up things for the rest of us!!! I cannot tell you enough how much I dislike this man. He is FAKE!!! He is full of CRAP!!! Do not do this to the rest of us who actually are intelligent and don't fall for BS!!!!!!!!