Holding My Breath

I never in my wildest dreams expected to be waiting for a day called "Super Tuesday", yet here I am. I'm anxious. I'm testy (just ask the hubby). Every time I change the channel it's to check out CNN or MSNBC to see what new developments there are. I actually sat through an entire Democratic debate. Yep, I said it. I have officially changed my position. I'm a newby in the Democrat field. They do things a bit different on this side of the isle. This whole delegate thing is enough to make anyone lose their mind. I think I like the Republican way in that respect... winner takes all. I was thinking that was the way things ran until the Nevada primary when they divided everything up and I was thoroughly lost.

Who knew this would be such an important nomination. Either way it goes will be historical. I have my pick. I know whom I want to win. I'm trying to be unbiased in this post. I am trying to see the other side. I'm trying to figure out the positives in the other candidate. So far it's been a struggle finding something that I like. I won't hide the fact that I don't like Obama. I see him and I think.... "car salesman" back away!! My gut tells me he is too good to be true. I don't think he knows what he's talking about when he's announces he stands for change. He speaks change but his actions and endorsees shout... we've been down this road before. I'm not willing to take the chance of letting him try out his wings as President of the US. There's too much at stake.

I want Hillary. I am a woman and I want Hillary. She has experience. She has integrity. She has guts. She has what it takes to run this country. She can win against ANY of the Republican candidates. She can weather any storm that they may throw at her. She's already made it through Monicagate with her integrity attached there's nothing she can't do. (Besides pee standing up. ) I am very aware that my position is an awkward position in the community I live. My husband is in the military and it's unheard of to vote Democrat let alone for a woman. I honestly don't care, he (the hubby) supports me in my voting for Hillary. I can't say where he stands, I'll just say it's just not far from me.

I'm frustrated with the way Hillary is being attacked about her vote on the war in Iraq. I see how short America's memory is. I see how quickly we forgot what happened on September 11th. Do you remember that feeling you had when you saw the towers? Do you remember how you wanted to wage war on anyone and anything that had to do with this? We as a country were very caught up in the moment. Very sure that we wanted someone to pay. Is it so wrong that she was also? That maybe she wanted someone to pay too? Why is she now being made to pay for this? What's done is done. It was voted on. WHO THE HELL CARES NOW?!?! We can't do anything now about who voted which way! We all make mistakes. I dare any of you to be in her position and then I want to see what you come up with. What matters now is ending things.

My prayer is that America thinks through these decisions. Please don't just take the media's say so on this. Please listen to the debates. We are in the midst of history in the making. I pray that we pay attention and that we make the decision that is right for us as individuals. Yours may be different from mine. That's okay. Just stop for a minute and realize we are history.